Show Yourself to the World

                Who we are, needs to be shared

I've grown up my whole life basically running from who I am; but in the long run, withholding who I am from everyone else is actually hurting me and could ultimately change my life's destiny.

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So, How much of ourselves DO we share?  ......

Most of us carry on relationships and friendships, sharing as much as we feel is normal to share, but there is that percentage of the unknown within us that we choose to keep to ourselves. Why? FEAR. Exposing something inside of us, that we don't want revealed. But what we withhold, could change someones life.

There could be a number of reasons why we don't tell our friends or even our family many things. Perhaps childhood memories, our views on God and whether we believe in God or a god, heartaches, things we've done that we regret, our points of view or true feelings. Maybe painful situations we may have faced in our lives. Whether good or bad, when we silence some truth about ourselves, it may not always be a good thing. Our hearts and minds contain thousands of different feelings, memories and thoughts that have been hidden for years, possibly our whole lives, because of fear, rejection, unforgiveness, guilt and maybe shame. 

I'll admit, that I've always been insecure and that's why I've struggled to keep steady friendships or even start friendships. I'm not the worst of my kind, but insecurity has kept me from many things, not only making new friends, but joining groups, playing in sports, going back to school, even going to the pool on a hot summer day. And one of my biggest challenges has been sharing the talents that I've been given. My low self esteem has altered the course of my life one way or another. It has kept me from living the fullest life possible and I shamefully admit it, but admitting it... is a start.
 
Thankfully I believe in a real God, He who created us and has given us life to live in our complete-selves. What I mean by complete selves, is that, we cannot be complete until we know him. I say this, knowing that we all find identity in different things and temporarily it gives us satisfaction and a sense of belonging. But that will fade. We can never know ourselves and be free from the chains of insecurity until we know God.
  

 Not Until We Know God, Can we Fully Know Ourselves....

This topic of God, is always a difficult one. But when it comes to living the fullest, there is no other way. So this is part of who I am. I am sharing many sides of myself with you, but of all the things I could share,God would have to be #1. Why? Because He is the answer to all the unanswered questions, he is the missing puzzle piece to all our hearts. And I couldn't be who I am today without him. He has shaped my very being and continues to heal my heartaches and lift me out of my struggles in life. He has revealed to me the secrets of discovering who I really am and it all started with one thing...

FIRST, learn to share yourself with God-

This is the first step to being healed of insecurity and truly being free in who you are as a person. All those things I talked about earlier that we struggle with telling others about ourselves, can be made so much easier when we first talk to God. He already knows all things; all our thoughts, our pains, our past and present, there is nothing he does not know about us. But the key is, that he wants us to open up to him first! I know we all fear exposing the truth behind our heart's locked door. There are so many things we are ashamed of, but the word REPENT does not mean that we are telling God something about us, that he doesn't already know. He just wants us to admit it. 

ADMIT, THEN REPENT

      And that word 'REPENT', really just means that you want to change and now he can help you do that.

     This could mean being free from insecurity, fear, mistakes you've made, or past heartache and so much more. All those tears you cry, don't go unheard. God is sincere and loving and will not step on your toes.He waits patiently for us to come to him in our need. He is a shoulder to cry on, he is the friend you never had, he is the lover you desire and the Father that has always loved you. 

I cry many tears of past hurts of a broken home, my father was not there for me, he was an alcoholic. I've had many messed up relationships with men that failed me. I've had friendships that have broken my heart and thought I could never forgive. Just like we all have had, I've had trials and triumphs. Some build me up, some knock me down. But God, has always been there, whether I've noticed or not. But, not until I opened my heart to tell him all that I feel and admit my mistakes, have I received peace. Something MAGICAL happens when you TALK it out.

When we rather deal with our issues alone, we are really saying that we don't need you, God. Or we're afraid of what God will do, if we turn to him for help. Especially if we are admitting something we've done wrong in our lives. Either way, God created us and wants us to live in the fullness of who he created us to be. We can't be all that we can be, unless he shows us how to be free. 

When we are free, we can truly Be

I know that I couldn't be writing these blogs, if it weren't for him giving me the courage. Every time I choose to be courageous, even if it is just a blog, I'm standing up to my fears. All the times I've chosen not to share my stories, show others what God has done in my life, share my talents, I was withholding from others a gift. We are all gifts from God, to one another. I never knew that until God told me, "Show your face to the world". We are here for specific purposes. Every time we put ourselves out there to be exposed, possibly rejected, criticized, whatever it may be; God is having the real victory through us. And he is cheering us on! 

 

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13 

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Beautiful and Insecure

Here it comes out, a truth I'm ashamed of,
I'm insecure and its not attractive.
I'm a child holding onto my daddy's leg
and people intimidate me and life is a stage.
But with that insecurity, comes pride,
hand in hand, its ugly and can't hide.
As I release the truth that I hold inside
These lies that feed on fear,
I'm tired of belittling thoughts and tears.
I'm sheltered; I'm uncultured
As much as I try to fit in with the crowd
the insecurity of being awkward, speaks out loud.

Even the thought of you reading this, makes me nervous
to look like a fool; this world is crippling and dangerous
This society, these people, its "coolness", its individualism,
its broadening, its various, the many paths, the many beliefs,
its not like the 50's, its not like the movies,
I miss the innocence, I miss the fantasies,
of God loving people; not these high society intellectuals,
with their money and degrees.
I hate what I see but when I like what I see,
when I know I can't match up, I'm filled with jealousy.
I can be bold and courageous when it comes to heroism,
but to be boisterous in myself, is a different situation.
I'm a coward and not outspoken, unless I'm fighting for the broken,
My heart is there for those who are humble,
for those not ashamed to admit that they stumble.

I seek hearts like mine and friendships you can't find,
to most who would read this, I think will like me less,
because I'm weak; but I know I'm free,
And God untangles the mess.
If you seek popularity, for me, that's a rarity,
but if you want a friend who would listen,
I'll encourage and lift up;
I'll even spoil you and be sincere,
because my God loved you first and wants you to hear.
Only those who find the narrow path,
will find the love that the rest have past.

So I am human, just like you,
and I have my down falls and I admit its true,
I forgive those who hurt me,
I try to love my enemies.
With all the negative that's within you and me,
there are angels, fighting for our victory.
To find His love and peace, my relationship with God,
has brought me to my knees.
In my humanness, I'm fearful, doubtful of my abilities,
In my God-sightedness, I'm beautiful and brave in spiritual qualities

I feel like the songwriter David,
whose fighting the world; Goliath,
in reality, I have no chance,
but God is my song and I fight with his breath.
He won't let me be defeated,
He gives us His words for ammunition
and His love for rest-

 


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An Inspirational Short - 'Creativity'

There's a constant need to express. To create, to give, to do, to help, ...to live. Life is not what you get, but what you give. That's how the seed of life planted within us, grows. The beauty within you is there, but how can you or anyone else see this beauty, if it is hidden.

God is a creative god. He is the ultimate artist. Creating the universe and mankind is just a small part of his art portfolio. He is the great musician, He is the great constructor, who commands the universe to move and work through cycles and glow. The great commander, who controls the storms, the wind, the rain. He is the great designer, of the beautiful sky, the oceans and lands, animals, nature and human beings. He is the great healer and inventor, creating human flesh. With its self sufficiency and healing mechanisms, capabilities and senses.  He is the great poet, lover and writer. He is more than words can explain. Its easy to say that God is extremely creative. Not only is he creatively complex, but He is the ultimate giver. He gave the ultimate gift, His life; his son, when Jesus died on the cross. Sometimes we don't realize how profound his actions were. He was martyred for something greater than himself. There are so many ways for us to give and because I love and long after what's within me, I know God has given us talents and a heart for beautiful purposes. It would be non-sense to say that we don't have some of his creativity. He implanted us with that desire. Its a beautiful topic. To give, is showing love. Not only can we give practically and usefully, but have we thought that are giving can be done creatively. I believe that this world could be impacted greatly if believers got out of the closet with their creativity.

We may not all be the best artists, or writers, or musicians, but God innovates and gives us what we need, to be able to give back.

I grew up loving and doing art and music. Creative at heart, my mother always encouraged my creativity, even though she never believed she had the same traits. Now I am 28 and still to this day, she says she is not creative, but I disagree. My father started his own business 20years ago, taking something so simple and making it his own. He doesn't claim to be "artistic" but took a simple can of Coca-Cola and turned it into a work of art. He now supports my family working at Farmer's Market's and Craft shows, selling recycled can's of soda and has turned them into F-14 jets, bi-planes, windmills and sailboats. My mother 20years ago also an entrepreneur, has had many different home businesses; from selling children's clothing and books at swap meets and Ebay, to creating a large business selling christian band t-shirts and posters. She sold at fairs, concerts and big venues. Her ideas and dreams came from prayer and faith; God can do anything!
I believe there are many forms of creativity, it could be creating your own business, writing a song, painting a masterpiece, or even putting a smile on someone's face.
Creativity can not be narrowed down to an art piece or a song writer, but it can be anything that impacts or can help the world. Many people have a misunderstanding of what art really is. I BELIEVE ANYONE WITH AN IDEA, IS CREATIVE. But, most people get stopped in their tracks, when they begin something and never finish it. The key is to be faithful with what you began. Finish what you start! Success is in the eye of the beholder. God is the ultimate giver and he will provide you with all that you need to be successful, diligent and creative. To complete anything is a success. That is our job. He gives us the ideas, now we must do something with them.

Start looking at yourself as one of God's counterparts. He has given us the tools; our spirits, our minds, our hearts, our senses and knowledge to move forward in the future. We are to succeed in this life. Not for the love of money and pride, but to live fruitfully in the nature of who He has made us to be.

ITS A BEAUTIFUL TOPIC...


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THE GREAT PSALM

A PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING.
A LOVE THAT LOVES AND HAS NO ENDING.
A JOY THAT BRINGS TEARS 
AND SONGS TO THOSE WHO HEAR
THY GOD, TO BE OUR GOD, 
AND THY PEOPLE, TO BE HIS PEOPLE
WE ARE HIS AND HE IS OURS
HE MADE US LOVERS OF HIS GREAT CAUSE
SINGERS AND WARRIORS
STANDING PROUD, SINGING ALOUD,
OUR GOD IS OUR SALVATION, NO SHAME, NO DOUBT
WE KNOW HIM, WE KNOW LOVE,
WE KNOW LOVE, WE KNOW SALVATION,
WE KNOW SALVATION, WE KNOW PEACE,
WE KNOW PEACE, WE KNOW JOY
WE KNOW JOY, WE KNOW HEAVEN
WE NO DOUBT, WE NO WORRY,
WE NO WORRY, WE NO FEAR, 
WE NO FEAR, WE NO HATE,
WE NO HATE, WE KNOW LOVE,
WE KNOW LOVE, WE KNOW HIM,


WE KNOW HIM, WE KNOW... LIFE.

We'll Never See Eye to Eye

Maybe I'm an intellectual, maybe I'm not.
Maybe I'm too analytical or just think a lot.
As I view the culture around me,
watch all the documentaries,
hearing the world views and "religious" views,
and see the sickness and disease.


I can't help but be confused by mankind,
its strange ways; I'm afraid,
and then there's my... narrow-sighted path to be saved.

Having one universal mind,
we are all one, with the earth inside,
its easy and brings freedom,
its too free, it scares me deeply

We have the rich and poor living side by side,
we have the debt to love and it makes no one cry.
I'm torn like a rag doll, pulled from arm to arm,
the all American and its fashions,
the underdogs and hipster nation

Everyone with their pride,
everyone is inside,
their own god,
their own truth, never see eye to eye.
The government is a fraud,
the world religions and all the gods
The one world order
and Illuminati,
designed to take our minds and our money

I'm swaying like a boat, in the tides,
but what holds me still, is truth that never dies
I'm mocked for what I believe
and even movies tell us to disagree
The lies upon lies,
stocked pile high,
You'll never believe it anyway,
because you've been lead astray.

What is truth will look like a lie,
what is a lie will look like the truth,
its all backwards and rearranged
and will continue to eat you alive.
People drown out every thought,
to make believe what they want,
what feels good, what feels right,
even when it jeopardizes,
eternal fate; eternal life.

What's good is bad,
what's bad is good,
this world and its people remind me,
of Alice, in the woods.

I've set my clock 10minutes ahead,
just to be prepared, for all that may come instead
If when I believe the time is right,
because of what they said, I hold on tight
they'll be caught sleeping in their beds,
as I will be ready, in truth, as I said. . .

..And You Shall Know the Truth

Introduction

From the beginning of time it has been spoken of, from words of the prophets, its been proclaimed and prophesied. In history books and artifacts, from the time of Jesus till this very moment, as we are all living and dying;  Most of mankind continues to live without a true understanding and conscience knowledge of man's creator ... and how much we are in need of knowing this truth.

KNOW THE DESIGNER - UNDERSTAND THE DESIGN
Its just like anything, assembling a product without its manual. Staring at the cover of a book but never reading it. Viewing an art piece, you may think it means one thing, but when speaking to the artist, you find out the creators intent was completely different than how you view it.

Eternal Life?
If we were born and have been raised believing our whole lives that we live and die and that is the story of man, that there is no before life or after life; what hope is there for life? Can all the riches in the world save or give you eternal life? Can all the power and authority give you eternal life? None can. No human being has the power to give themselves eternal life. The thought of living forever may scare you, maybe we don't like the idea of it being a possibility. How could we imagine living forever with the human bodies that we have? We get old, we get sick, we get weak, our human bodies made of flesh can't withstand eternity. That's probably why most of us can't fathom living forever, because we know in our right minds that the body can not last that long. But who really wants to die? Who wants to never exist? We may want to give up on life because of heartache, depression; tired from the day ins and outs of work and the hum-drum life style we have set for ourselves. But what if that was all taken away? What if we could live forever, we could be free from all sadness, pain, suffering and live with joy and peace for eternity? That sounds pretty good to me!

The universe is complex, because its creator is complex. We know the earth is living and breathing, but its relationship to man is different than a relationship that humans have with one another. How would human beings become so complex in relating to one another? "Falling in love", brotherly love, family, friendship; the science behind people's feelings, reactions, communication with one another was created with such great detail in the creation of man, that how could a human being with so much emotion and feeling, mind and body, just become what it is out of mere coincidence. Once again, WE are complex, because we have a creator that is complex. You've heard people say its impossible to prove God exists? I think its impossible to prove that he doesn't!  His creation of the universe and mankind has such clear attributes that we can not deny that God is a living being and every heart on earth knows, because that was his design, for us to know him. But human beings have human flesh and we think logically that all that exists must be seen with the human eye. Has science proven that our souls exist? Has science proven that we have a spirit? You cannot see the soul or spirit but our hearts know they do. Can you see the wind? No, but you can feel it and you can hear it and you can see the way it affects the trees and nature. Can we see the future? No, but we know its there because we've proven over history that mankind on earth continues. But have it been proven there is life after death? YES.

You might be thinking, that there is no logical way that is possible. But it is. Its been proven. Do you remember how? Jesus was not a mere historic figure and world wide religious icon for no reason. He never wanted glory for himself, he never wanted to become the most hated world religious image of all time? But why is he hated? Because "RELIGION" took his life and made it in to a pride filled, self-righteous movement and they put His face on it. Most claimed "FOLLOWERS" of Christ, don't follow his example or know him at all.
But the truth of all time, the truth of life that was spoken through the ONLY man that has raised from the dead by power given from God and proclaimed God's true existence, has become a world wide fad and at the same time most hated and professed faith. WHY??
The pride of mankind took the gift of life, the gift of knowledge, the gift of the secrets of this worlds creation and destroyed its integrity and absolute truth, to look like and act like themselves. We cannot look to man in all its evil and unkindness, all its lies and mockeries, all its negativeness and hate and say that's where the formation of "Christianity" or the idea of "God" came from. TRUTH IS ALL GOOD. Because its creator, is all good and all truth.

So back to Jesus. No one really knew him. But if you look at his words, you can find them in the bible. His words were spoken with true humility and true conscientiousness of his Father in heaven, you could see the power and miracles and amazing things done. Not only did he do the impossible but he says we could do what he had done. Why did he say we could do what he was doing? Because he wanted us to know that his resurrection from death, would be possible for us as well.
The bible is our history book to how it all happened. How we were created, how the world was formed by God's hands and how he has loved us always! How have we gotten so far from knowing the truth of our existence? When God made the first man and women, he was in relationship with them. Just as I was saying before, that human beings relate and have a bond together, because God created us to have relationship with him as well, because we were made in his image. That was God's plan from the beginning, that he knows us and we are to know him, because he made us. He was so intrigued by his creation in us, that we had feelings and thoughts and we could be family. If you have children, you can understand this concept. We are God's children, just as you love your own children, imagine a God that can give so much, has created all things and how much he must possibly love us.

Created to live forever...
Remember how I was mentioning death, how its been proven there is life after death by Jesus coming back from the dead? He appeared to many people, he wanted to give us proof so we would not fear death. So we would have the truth. That we will continue to live, but this knowledge is for those who have the faith to believe. That we do have a soul and spirit. And that's what will continue living. Its the only way we can.
Man kind from the beginning of time was created to live forever, we had the knowledge and knew we would live forever with God; our Father. But the glitch in our story is that we didn't continue with God's love.
Once man decided to create its own destiny, to fulfill its own desires and become god's ourselves, without our creator, we had forgotten all that God had shown us, given us and completely turned our backs on God the all loving and all merciful. "PRIDE" became our god. "Self righteousness" is the death that was born inside of us. To take what God created and exclude him from the great picture, the creation of the world, the creation of mankind, even 'love'; what God is. Most people believe we can find love in ourselves and we can do all things ourselves. 

Its a sad truth that his own people turned on Him. We not only turned on him, but on each other, that's why there is so much murder, crime, hate, greed, wickedness in this world. All the evil you see, is the result of mankind disowning its creator. We also turned our back on earth; pollution, sickness, disease, animal extinction, the killing of trees and nature, all the damage that has been done, due to man's rebellion, pride and ultimately, our selfishness.

The conclusion does not end there though. We have a choice and God still remains the same. Even in our selfishness and disorderly environment, all that we've become, God still loves us. But His love is to not be taken for granted. We may know he loves us and live the way we desire, but we shall die and bare the eternal death of our spirits without him, IF WE DO NOT TURN BACK TO OUR LOVING FATHER.
Not only did God love us first and will forgive us, if we want to be forgiven but if we know that he created us for his purposes, in his love and peace; We as His people can reverse the consequence of death and have eternal life by loving God with our lives!

Are You Ready?

Its really a choice. 

And He's waiting for you.

Once you believe, He will show you the way. He says he is a voice speaking inside, telling you "this is the way". Confusion and fear are not from God, he comes to bring you truth, His love and a life of peace. Not to bring damnation and terror, but to wake you from the sleeping giant of man-kind, that is unconscious and slowly dying. This is a wake up call for any that feel drawn to know the truth of the human experience, why we are here? what is life for? .. all the questions that people stopped asking, when they chose to believe the lie, that there is no God. God is real and you need to say it out loud. 

"God is real and Jesus is alive". So if you believe and you know that we were wrong as man kind and you say "I was wrong, God".. "I want to know the truth",

He says "YOU SHALL KNOW THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE" 

 :)

My Story

With all this being said, life will continue the way it has. Man living for himself, man being broken in relationships, man destroying earth, man living apart from God, in darkness. Writing a blog on this topic is not easy, its not going to be liked or favored, I may not sound smart, or literate, its not out of pride, cause just as I said before, "PRIDE" kills. I don't do it for any of those reasons-

I didn't choose to write this blog, it came out and I believe it came from God's spirit to you.

These were all questions I asked in my heart at a time in my life, all things I feared to know the truth about. Terrified of death, because not living anymore felt terrible to think of. When God revealed the truth to me, I was awakened. I was reborn with a new knowledge and truth of life, like no other. And I believe it with all my heart and knowing God is what saves me. In any situation, any day, anything that happens, I know I have a loving Father, who is God. He loves me, protects me, teaches me and even disciplines me, because of His love. I just want to share this with you, because he gave this to me. And he wants to give this to you! 

Writing a blog like this is not just to be read, but hopefully will change your life-

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WHATS Really Inside

WHAT I SEE....
We're all somewhat friendly,
somewhat kind,
but disguised by these eyes,
is what's really inside.
People believe that being good
will save them,
people think that doing good deeds,
going to church; "makes them".
We all put on the smile, the self-righteous denial,
a momentary "good feeling" that keeps us pleased...
for a while.
As we lie to our selves,
our pride will make us fall
Only to fall deeper into
our seared conscience,
away from our call.

WHAT IS WITHIN ME....
He carries me day to day,
I pray to the Lord,
help me love more this day.
I know whats within me,
I was empty as we all are,
but now filled with life
truth gives and recreates us
into a loving wife.
Forgiven and renewed,
the whole truth, can make us true,
We know not, because we seek not,
the deeper you follow the rabbit into
the rabbit hole, you find what you forgot.
Before we were born, we were made,
from hands divine; engraved
Within each heart, a longing to be saved,
our agenda keeps us from searching; keeping us enslaved.

 WHAT I KNOW...
Can all the words in the world save us? no.
But the only word that can, was written on the tablets of our hearts.
Truth is NOT what "feels" the best and salvation is not what's the easiest path,
but the carrier of the truth, will lift the darkness that hides our hearts
and expose the love He has for us; now we will have freedom, now we are set apart.


                                                                                                             July 8, 2012